hi all,

still no AF for me - now day 29 but not really sure of normal cycle length so dont know when to start to get hopeful. i want to get excited by am also trying to convince myself that it wont happen so that i wont be so disappointed if AF arrives. this last week for me has flown - it feels like the first time i have felt that since Lani died - time just seemed to drag in this torturous twisted reality but hopefully this week is a sign of normality slowly creeping back.

i met up tonight with a lecturer from uni who i still had contact with over the years since been working. only found out since Lani that her first baby died (full term like Lani) i has been nearly 12 years since he died and she now has 2 beautiful girls. we had the most wonderful 2 hour conversation and she had many words of wisdom for me. it has been so important for me to find someone who has been through the same or similar journey to me and now i feel like i've found that person. that sounds like i am not thankful to all of you - please know that i am more than words can say.

Jo and Sonni - hope that AF doesnt arrive for you and that at least one of us can have a BFP this month!

Katiegirl - so glad that you have found the new OB - he sounds absolutely wonderful. seeing him every week would be so helpful i think and i dont think you will get sick of it!! i know i wouldnt! hopefully you only have to wait the 4 weeks. i will have my for you.