hi everyone!
i write with some good news! i had my ultrasound, even with no initial tears or nervousness! I did'nt even ask her to turn off the screen until she saw a heartbeat. I felt good going to the other place and i think that had alot to do with my state of mind going in this morning. I had the most amzing and gentle sonographer, she understood my history and made a point of identifying every last thing we could see and telling me how good it all looked for our baby at this point. she said all is looking healthy and normal, the heartbeat was a bit faster than expected (anyone know what this means) but she was still happy. So now my state of mind is looking alot better and positive. There will al;ways be that nagging doubt in the back of my mind (paranoia) but today really helped shift my belief system. And she said it looks like we are having a girl which backs up the "i think" of the 12 week scan and my psychic even!! She said to get it checked in my 22 week one and they will be able to tell even better.
to all of you...
TM - you are back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was so happy to see you post! You will see we were thinking of you even when you were'nt here so i hope that gives you a nice boost of support! I am crossing my fingers for you!Are there any cheaper versions that you can go on? or other alternative routes? And more importantly, HOW ARE YOU feeling?
sryan - bloody spotting! It makes things so much more confusing!At least you can see a positive in your seeing natropath so that is good!
hammi - yay for you...big step but i am glad you put a kick up their butts so bluntly. keep on them, don't be afraid of the verbal part -if you get emotional then that is still a good thing for them to see how much all these delays affect you! i really hope this month passes quickly and you get the answers you are hoping for. take crae!
katie - i hope you are still resting ... forget about visitors and your house. They can wait, you need to rest! So how often will you get ultrasounds now? every 2 weeks now or will they start to phase back a bit. i am glad to hear your last one continued the goos news trend! REST!!!!I just got through the worst heartburn for 2 days and i was ready to chuck everyone out!
jen - lol! the ticker can come now, so be on the alert! hope this month can be yours! heres to a countdown...
rozzie - my bleeding after birth with jack was terrible and every time it stopped for a couple of days it would come back full force for longer. The AF before i concieved with this baby was horrendous, i could could give you stories with far TMI. But my body was obviously doing something it needed to cos it all worked out. It sux and we don't understand it when its happening, we just need to trust our bodies even through the frustration!
hgirs -yay for Af! This is good as it means you have a starting point again now! good luck!
take care all, i hope i did'nt leave anyone out!
x jo