Thanks very much for your well wishes, I can't wait to get that op over and done with, so I can begin to heal and look forward to ( hopefully ) a new pregnancy. My OB did mention an almost certain c section next time as the uterus may rupture otherwise. I have to say I was a bit dissapointed as I would have loved a vaginal delivery, but at the end of the day if I get a healthy bub that's what really counts.
I'm sorry you've had a blue with your DH, I actually find my fiancee is the same as he finds talking about Joshua upsetting, whereas I love talking about him as it makes me feel closer to him. I didn't want to put up a xmas tree this year as well, but he's so big on xmas that I just went with the flow. I would have been 34 weeks pregnant at Christmas so it makes me feel really sad that it's going to be so different to what I expected....
Enjoy this Christmas knowing your little bub on the way is celebrating with you too.
hgirs, men are so different aren't they ???? That will never change, we just do/deal with situations differently....
Good luck ladies with your pregnancies, enjoy every bit of it !
Hope everyone has a great Christmas and a wonderful 2009 filled with beautiful surprises ! Lots of Babydust to all TTC.
Girls, I adore you all so much for your thoughts and positive vibes but lets get the bad news over and done with. Spotting last night turned into the ugly unwelcome fat witch this morning so I knew I would get a BFN today. Needless to say, I am devastated and all day. I went to the beautician this arvo to de-hair and the first thing this stupid little girl said to me was "I love Xmas. Do you have excited kids at home waiting for Santa?? I burst into tears right on the spot and said "I have a baby boy and if he was alive, Im sure he would have been excited". She was mortified. I was sobbing so much but managed to get out "I bet you will think twice about asking that question now wont you?" I feel like such a b*tch and it really is an ok question to ask most women BUT NOT US AND NOT TODAY!! She gave me a hug, a box of tissues then didnt say another word!
My FS is on holidays but he is coming in to see me tomorrow to discuss next steps. I may try another round of IUI but I think he wants to get the big guns out and try IVF so I have a lot of thinking to do tonight.
Theresa, I am so sorry you are feeling down. Wish I could reach through the screen and give you a . I personally cant wait until this bloody "festive" period is over. It only emphasises our pain and what we are missing out on. Agggrrrrr.
Beata, I am so glad you feel at home with us and yes, chat away while you are recovering. We are always here for you.
Rozzie, sorry about your meltdown. As stated above, I think this time of year is lethal to us and some men just dont get it unfortunately. My DH is wonderful, when I was pg he googled his little heart out, read all the books and gave me the low down of where bubs and I were at each day! However, he doesn't talk about Sebastian much and chooses to focus on the future so I guess that is his way of dealing with things. How exciting for you to be feeling all those big kicks! Enjoy spending time with your parents.
Lan & Tildy, hope you are enjoying your time away.
Hey, noone answered my "What is BH"?? question. I have a feeling I should know but please dont think me dumb!
So anyway, am back on the TTC journey and am excited to be sharing it with so many of you lovelies.
Hello to everyone else and hope you are all doing well.
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Diana, I waited all day to hear your news, just wasn't the news we wanted, I'm sorry. I am with you I can't wait till Xmas is over, we had a shocker last year, and now with all that's happened this year... But 2009 will be the year for all of us I am hoping like mad! BH - sorry I meant to answer that and forgot, Braxton Hicks! Big hugs for today, it really is hard.
Thanks Helen. I couldn't wait until DH came home so I could get online and get some hugs from you all. Noone else knows we are TTC so felt really alone today. I am soooo grateful I have you all.
We have all certainly had a hard and emotional couple of years haven't we. Here's to 2009!
Hellooo! Came back from the coast early as spending 24hrs a day everyday with my nieces and nephews was more than my little heart could bear so DH and my mum and I escaped early.
Had to get on right away to see how you guys are doing and had such a fright when I read the beginning of Diana's message about bad news. AF is a total cow but relative to the kind of bad news we've all had, she is minor and I breathed a huge sigh of relief. Not that I don't acknowledge how disappointed you are, Diana.
We are all having such a hard time. I don't know what to say that hasn't been said. I wish I could physically hug you all. Special welcoming hugs to Beata and Zachary's Mom.
Where is Jo? I'm worried. I messaged her on Facebook last week and haven't heard back. Katie, do you have any other ways of contacting her?
Paula, you always make me laugh. I hope I make you pee with excitement soon then :-)))) I'm now on CD19. No crazy phantom pregnancy signs this time. Too busy feeling sorry for myself, I think.
Thanks Lan, sorry for the fright. You are right, after what we have all been through, she is sooooo minor and I will not give her another thought. I also demand she stays away from us for the next 10 months! It is all up to you to get us a BFP before end of year!
Sorry you had to escape early. Oh it is all so hard
I have a house full of family for Xmas Eve dinner tomorrow night and I just want to call and cancel. Boo to all things Xmas related...
Oh girls you are just so funny ! ( I feel right at home )
Diana ( aka dd0207 aha ! I now know your name now ) I'm sorry hun for the set back. But you know, it's only a wee one and a small hurdle. You'll get there hun, I know 2009 will be a good year for us.
I know what you mean about xmas, I'm putting on a brave face for DF but I also find myself thinking heaps of Joshua, and it makes me sad .
PS Good on you for telling that beautician girl exactly how you felt instead of pretending everything is OK. That was nice of her to give you a hug and a box of tissues....Sending you a huge hug hun
Hammi, thanks for your welcome hun, I'm really liking this group of all you lovely girls, there is so much support here.
Beata70 - Thanks - it is so hard. I never imagined this is how our Christmas would turn out and my heart is breaking. I can't stop crying and everything is upsetting me and I am getting so angry at all these people who are celebrating when I feel like dying! I never thought life could be so unfair. I will keep praying that we all get our BFP's in 2009. Oh - and the name thing is fine - it happens all the time lol
Katiegirl - thanks for the welcome. I have felt so much better in myself with all these wonderful ladies to talk to. I known it is an awful place to be but at least I know everyone here understands what I am going through- Instead of people who "imagine" what it's like!
Berry1 - thank you so much for your kind words. I appreciate it more than you know.
Rozzie27 - I kow what yo mean about the Christmas thing. I have not put up any decorations or even aknowledged it is Christmas. I a making a sacrifice by going to DP's parents (with my parents) for Christmas dinner (and I am dreading it as there will be 14 people there and I am not in a festive mood at all). We got Zachary;s autopsy results and there was no conclusive reason for his death. All his organs were normal and they could not find a reason. I am glad he was fine but it makes it harder to accept. I keep thinking - if he was so healthy, why did he die?
dd0207 - I just want all this hooha to be over with too! I can't wait for everyone to get back to reality! I miss my Zachary so much. He would have been 5 months old tomorrow so I am not quite sure how I am going to be tomorrow. I just hope I can get through the day at work without having a meltdown. I am so sorry for your horrid experience - people just don't think (unfortunately). My thoughts and prayers are with you xxx
Hammi - welcome back and thanks for the welcome. I feel very at home here and I love the fact that I can just be myself.
Take care everyone and if I don't get a chance tomorrow - I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and a new year that sees your dreams coming true xxx
all day. I went to the beautician this arvo to de-hair and the first thing this stupid little girl said to me was "I love Xmas. Do you have excited kids at home waiting for Santa?? 
I burst into tears right on the spot and said "I have a baby boy and if he was alive, Im sure he would have been excited". She was mortified. I was sobbing so much but managed to get out "I bet you will think twice about asking that question now wont you?" I feel like such a b*tch and it really is an ok question to ask most women BUT NOT US AND NOT TODAY!! She gave me a hug, a box of tissues then didnt say another word!
. I personally cant wait until this bloody "festive" period is over. It only emphasises our pain and what we are missing out on. Agggrrrrr.
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