Hellooo! Came back from the coast early as spending 24hrs a day everyday with my nieces and nephews was more than my little heart could bear so DH and my mum and I escaped early.
Had to get on right away to see how you guys are doing and had such a fright when I read the beginning of Diana's message about bad news. AF is a total cow but relative to the kind of bad news we've all had, she is minor and I breathed a huge sigh of relief. Not that I don't acknowledge how disappointed you are, Diana.
We are all having such a hard time. I don't know what to say that hasn't been said. I wish I could physically hug you all. Special welcoming hugs to Beata and Zachary's Mom.
Where is Jo? I'm worried. I messaged her on Facebook last week and haven't heard back. Katie, do you have any other ways of contacting her?
Paula, you always make me laugh. I hope I make you pee with excitement soon then :-)))) I'm now on CD19. No crazy phantom pregnancy signs this time. Too busy feeling sorry for myself, I think.
Thanks Lan, sorry for the fright. You are right, after what we have all been through, she is sooooo minor and I will not give her another thought. I also demand she stays away from us for the next 10 months! It is all up to you to get us a BFP before end of year!
Sorry you had to escape early. Oh it is all so hard
I have a house full of family for Xmas Eve dinner tomorrow night and I just want to call and cancel. Boo to all things Xmas related...
Oh girls you are just so funny ! ( I feel right at home )
Diana ( aka dd0207 aha ! I now know your name now ) I'm sorry hun for the set back. But you know, it's only a wee one and a small hurdle. You'll get there hun, I know 2009 will be a good year for us.
I know what you mean about xmas, I'm putting on a brave face for DF but I also find myself thinking heaps of Joshua, and it makes me sad .
PS Good on you for telling that beautician girl exactly how you felt instead of pretending everything is OK. That was nice of her to give you a hug and a box of tissues....Sending you a huge hug hun
Hammi, thanks for your welcome hun, I'm really liking this group of all you lovely girls, there is so much support here.
Beata70 - Thanks - it is so hard. I never imagined this is how our Christmas would turn out and my heart is breaking. I can't stop crying and everything is upsetting me and I am getting so angry at all these people who are celebrating when I feel like dying! I never thought life could be so unfair. I will keep praying that we all get our BFP's in 2009. Oh - and the name thing is fine - it happens all the time lol
Katiegirl - thanks for the welcome. I have felt so much better in myself with all these wonderful ladies to talk to. I known it is an awful place to be but at least I know everyone here understands what I am going through- Instead of people who "imagine" what it's like!
Berry1 - thank you so much for your kind words. I appreciate it more than you know.
Rozzie27 - I kow what yo mean about the Christmas thing. I have not put up any decorations or even aknowledged it is Christmas. I a making a sacrifice by going to DP's parents (with my parents) for Christmas dinner (and I am dreading it as there will be 14 people there and I am not in a festive mood at all). We got Zachary;s autopsy results and there was no conclusive reason for his death. All his organs were normal and they could not find a reason. I am glad he was fine but it makes it harder to accept. I keep thinking - if he was so healthy, why did he die?
dd0207 - I just want all this hooha to be over with too! I can't wait for everyone to get back to reality! I miss my Zachary so much. He would have been 5 months old tomorrow so I am not quite sure how I am going to be tomorrow. I just hope I can get through the day at work without having a meltdown. I am so sorry for your horrid experience - people just don't think (unfortunately). My thoughts and prayers are with you xxx
Hammi - welcome back and thanks for the welcome. I feel very at home here and I love the fact that I can just be myself.
Take care everyone and if I don't get a chance tomorrow - I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and a new year that sees your dreams coming true xxx
Diana, sorry to hear AF arrived, such bad timing she has at the moment!!! I know it's probably no consolation, but it's a good sign that you're body is back in a rhythm, next month you'll be rearing to go. I think good on you for crying in front of that girl. I really think that we feel so alone because losing babies is such a social taboo and people just don't think it happens, I think it's important to be honest about it so that there is more awareness.
Theresa, that is really rough not having a cause for Zachary's loss. Again I hate to do the 'at least' bit because I know it doesn't help, but my OB told me that there is often no cause found, that there is a lot that medicine doesn't know about babies in the womb, and also that a second unexplained loss is extremely rare.
Lan, you did so well to spend some time at all with your nephews and nieces. I've stayed away deliberately, I knew I couldn't deal with it. I hope the rest of your holiday is a bit more restful and you and DH have some quality lazing time together.
Jo, hope you're OK and just too busy with your family to chat, wishing you a nice Christmas with your two earth angels and two heavenly angels.
I cannt sleep in past 6 am these days (unless I have to work, then I have to drag myself out of bed, where is the logic???). Very odd.
Hi ladies
Sorry to crash in (some of you know me from the pg area), but I just wanted to let Diana know how sorry I am to hear that horrible wench AF arrived! I have been spying on you and was hoping for good news!
Have a great xmas everyone and I hope all you lovely ladies TTC have lots of luck in 2009.
Jo x
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