Beata70 - Thanks - it is so hard. I never imagined this is how our Christmas would turn out and my heart is breaking. I can't stop crying and everything is upsetting me and I am getting so angry at all these people who are celebrating when I feel like dying! I never thought life could be so unfair. I will keep praying that we all get our BFP's in 2009. Oh - and the name thing is fine - it happens all the time lol
Katiegirl - thanks for the welcome. I have felt so much better in myself with all these wonderful ladies to talk to. I known it is an awful place to be but at least I know everyone here understands what I am going through- Instead of people who "imagine" what it's like!
Berry1 - thank you so much for your kind words. I appreciate it more than you know.
Rozzie27 - I kow what yo mean about the Christmas thing. I have not put up any decorations or even aknowledged it is Christmas. I a making a sacrifice by going to DP's parents (with my parents) for Christmas dinner (and I am dreading it as there will be 14 people there and I am not in a festive mood at all). We got Zachary;s autopsy results and there was no conclusive reason for his death. All his organs were normal and they could not find a reason. I am glad he was fine but it makes it harder to accept. I keep thinking - if he was so healthy, why did he die?
dd0207 - I just want all this hooha to be over with too! I can't wait for everyone to get back to reality! I miss my Zachary so much. He would have been 5 months old tomorrow so I am not quite sure how I am going to be tomorrow. I just hope I can get through the day at work without having a meltdown. I am so sorry for your horrid experience - people just don't think (unfortunately). My thoughts and prayers are with you xxx
Hammi - welcome back and thanks for the welcome. I feel very at home here and I love the fact that I can just be myself.
Take care everyone and if I don't get a chance tomorrow - I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and a new year that sees your dreams coming true xxx
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