Hey there girls,

Dory, you did a magical job hun at having a moment and letting the show go on. I tried to explain to my SIL today that dealing with infertility can be likened to having a disability in a way. You have to manage it, learn to live with it, consider it everytime you go out and about. Losing a child certainly exacerbates it 10 fold. People forget it is something we live with for the rest of our lives, not just an experience that happened a while back. I think that is why people sometimes think we 'hold on' to the pain and sadness...No, we live with it, it follows us, it is not for attention, or self pity. It is something we learn to manage. I was saying my SIL...I have had to find my trust in life again. I think I am pretty close to it now. I am learning to trust the universe again...but there will be hell to pay if my faith is taken for granted again.xoxo

AFM- Well it has been an interesting couple of days. I have written it in my blog so I will be brief here. Had a bit of a spin out....OVcaught me un awares on CD9. VERY early for me and I found myself having similar thoughts to Suz...but my lining needs more time!
I have no idea what was happening. I have had no Ov pain as per usual. CM was watery and not much of it But cervix was well and truely open with EWCM in small quantitiy...so What the hell.... we dtd etc and again for good measure and cause it was so much fun the first time...and I went mad trying to work it all out. Had a great night actually besides the analysing!
So... the line on the OPK was so dark, as dark as the indicator line...I just don;t know when it started being so dark. I only started testing that day-CD9. Anyway, what will be will be. I kind of feel good about it all, sychronicity and all. We felt like getting up to mischeif which is always a good sign.

Tomorrow, gardening if weather allows. DH is off and then we get to play Cranium over at my SIL and bros house. Should be a fun night and a good distraction. xoxoxo Fingers are crossed.