Hey Cherryl, just wanted to wish you lots of luck with your ED cycle. I think what you are doing is just amazing, I really hope it works for you and you have your much wanted bub soon. I'm glad that you have this new and exciting journey to look forward too. I also don't think you should stop posting in here, after all you are still in your TTC journey, no matter how it is travelled! Good luck to you and your hubby sweetie, I really hope and pray it works for you guys.
Gigi and Beata thanks. It might seem like we have done this very quickly but really it has taken more than 2 years since we were first advised to find an ED to where we are today. Of course we had to accept it first and that meant grieving the loss of my own genetic child. Falling pg kind of threw that process somewhat. But we have done lots of reading and I have spoken to many mums of ED children and have learnt a lot from them and their experiences. If this doesn't work then I guess that will be the end of our TTC journey. What a difficult road we travel!
Thanks again for everyone's kind words and support. It means a lot to me.
oxo
I am finding this thread very helpful. It's so nice to know other people have doubts and worries about their TTC journeys.....it's not nice that they are worried and doubtful, just good to know I'm not the only one.
Chez, your plan sounds very very exciting. I think any child who is loved is lucky, you will love any child you concieve using the process you have chosen. I wish you hope health and happiness in your journey.
Dory, your support and kind word are a constant help to me thanks.
To everyone else thanks, and good luck to you on your journeys.
I am 4 days from the end of my 2ww......arrggghhhh.
I feel weird but not sure if I'm preggas......I'm almost too scared to hope.
I didn't buy into all this TTC stuff so heavily before Ellen was concieved, I just had faith. Since her death I have very very little faith.........
Kate, I have my fingers crossed for you big time hun. This journey does find you losing a bit of faith for a while. I am not sure if it ever ALL comes back but it certainly resurfaces, in part, from somewhere. But most certainly we kiss our innocence goodbye! I hope you are pleasantly surprised this month hun.
Well ladies, CD1 today. We have a fizzer. I am really disappointed although I was losing faith big time in the last few days. I have comfort in knowing my body...i did OV early, strange for me but it was confirmed today with 14DPO and AF starting. We are both Gutted with a capital G! Dh has been a star, I enjoy us reconnecting deeper and deeper everytime we invest in each other. We have had such a strong year together after losing DD. We have always been strong but there is something to be said for sahring an experience like the one we have all been through. No one will ever fully understand but the one who went through it with you. There is huge comfort in that. My second place of call is here! You ladies are incredible and a huge part of my life and support. I just don't know where i woul dbe without you all. Thank you for your love and cheers this month. I will be calling on you all again in a couple of weeks...until then...idle chit chat will be in order.
Now lets see wehn Ov will be this month...i hope it is not making a new habit of things. Regularity...please stick around, you are all I have got to hold onto somedays!!
It's 3 days before AF is due so I did a test.....BFN.....had a huge cry! I did some work this am then went to a good friends funeral. I felt like I needed some good news and felt this was gonna be our month.......seems not......I am devestated. It's weird because my boobs have been tender, I've been a bit nauseous and I've felt that "calm pregnant feeling". Oh well. BUGGER!
My good friend (her hubby's funeral) gave me a hug after the service (where they chose to read one of my poems). She actually said she hopes her Tony sends me a baby! I am blown away by her caring to be thinking of me like that at her husbands funeral! She is a truly amazing woman. I hope I've been doing enough to help them. I've cooked meals for them and popped in quickly to check on them. It's so hard to not smother them but to let them know we are there.
We were going to start IVF this week but as it turns out hubby might have to be out of town right at the "vital" moment so we've decided to wait another month......hope it's the right decision.
Sorry this is all me,me, me, I'm just not coping so well atm.
Thanks for all the support I get
Kate
Oh boy hunny, you are having such a full one time. What a day. I am so sorry for your loss this month. I am also sorry you are surrounded by more grief and the loss of such a close friend. It is perfectly understandable to not be coping so well sweet. You are human and only one woman...which in the spirit of girl power is usually enough to do anything, BUT this is just a lot hun and you can only handle so much at a time. I remember saying once that I just can't handle the same amount of stuff anymore. Your boat gets full and it is closer to sinking point a lot quicker than before.
You are so thoughtful and special to be taking them meals. How kind of you hun when you have so much going on for yourself. You are an incredibly loving friend. I am sure she appreciates it and I am sure she appreciates that you have some understanding to what she might be going through. I know it is different but you know what it is like to have your heart ripped out.
And wow...and IVF cycle. Maybe it is good timing to wait a few weeks so you can catch up.
I am worried for you sweet, go easy on yourself and I hope there is someone there for you too. I went to a funeral a month after we had DD's...it hit me more than DD's funeral. I think because i had to keep it together for hers. The next funeral, was a raw reminder that death does exists, what happen to us was not a dream. It is real and it hurts and it touches everyone. Such a raw awakening...or rather a reminder of what we already know.
Oh hun, sending you a big hug. Hope you get to have a nice bath to prepare for your 'resting time' of the month- AF. I hope you get to start a cycle as soon as you can and I really HOPE you have your dreams come true.
Love and light to you hun. xoxoxo
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