TTC AFTER Late Loss/Recurrent Miscarriage/ Stillbirth 2010

[crumpet]

I was doing okay so far this morning (I've been up all night again) until I got bored and googled my name and came across a British news article I commented on when I was 11 weeks pg - about a couple who had a stillborn boy. This is the comment I made:



...I'm kinda bawling my eyes out again now.

Oh, and I am going to the cemetery today to do the balloon release. Not sure if it'll be just me and Scott (he miraculously got his shift switched and so he's working this morning) or there will be a few more people, but it is happening! We'll have to be careful not to interfere with another funeral though - Ianto's getting another little "neighbour" two plots down, and his burial's at 2:30.

for u today hun.....
i cant even begin to imagine what your going through today, but im so so happy that scott has managed to have the afternoon with you.....
i think its a beautiful idea to let a ballon go.....
will be thinking of u all day.....

Hi Everyone.. Have just skimmed posts. I am not really posting in here anymore, too much of my own rubbish going on.. Lots and lots of drama with my seperation..

for you to hun, hope ur doing ok..... it must be a hard time for u.

AFM: well i have a second interview for a reception job today so i get it, i actually want to work a few days a week at the moment!!!

got a call from SIDS AND KIDS yesterday and i start councelling tuesday..... wasnt expecting to be going down this track but i think its best.....

and as of last night i have developed a metalic/acidy kinda of taste in my mouth..... kinda like ive eaten a jar of pickeled onions?? which i havnt LOL had burritots for dinner! anyone had the metalic taste when preg can u describe it to me? please...

[dory]

Teni - thinking of you, Scott and your angel Ianto today. May the balloon you release rise up with your love and sadness but also some of mine. Go gently sweet one.

Blessed - oh sweetie. Thinking of you, I know you are doing it tough right now. Surround yourself with as much support as you can. I know you can get through this, you are a strong and amazing woman, who has so much to give and two angel babies giving you strength and guidance. I will miss you, but sometimes I can actually get its not about me and you need this space. Love to you.

Crumpet - hmm a sneaky bfp perhaps? I have ALWAYS had a funny metallic taste before a bfp. Sometimes it was quite strong other times not so much, but always distinctly metalic. I don't know how else to describe it but I don't get it at any other time. I also got more salvia and headahces the first time ( but not sure if that was from the caffeine withdrawal or something else)....I am hoping its a sneaky bfp for you, then you leave the insanity of tcc behind but enter a whole other world.

Glad you start counselling next week.

Thinking of you Chez, Gigi, and Bermuda Girl ( hope all that sun, sand and beach is doing the trick) and Charli.

AFM - I seem to be feeling more positive today. Last 3 days or so have just been inexplicably sad and weepy. Not scared, not thinking about my babies, just sad. So sad it broke my heart to come on to BB and read and feel all the sadness. I really felt it to my very core and I couldn't take it on. That hasn't happened to me for quite a while.

Go strong my friends.

[crumpet]

Crumpet - hmm a sneaky bfp perhaps? I have ALWAYS had a funny metallic taste before a bfp. Sometimes it was quite strong other times not so much, but always distinctly metalic. I don't know how else to describe it but I don't get it at any other time. I also got more salvia and headahces the first time ( but not sure if that was from the caffeine withdrawal or something else)....I am hoping its a sneaky bfp for you, then you leave the insanity of tcc behind but enter a whole other world.

Glad you start counselling next week.

AFM - I seem to be feeling more positive today. Last 3 days or so have just been inexplicably sad and weepy. Not scared, not thinking about my babies, just sad. So sad it broke my heart to come on to BB and read and feel all the sadness. I really felt it to my very core and I couldn't take it on. That hasn't happened to me for quite a while.

Go strong my friends.

hun did u think it was a bit like a acidic kinda taste??? ive never had a taste like this before!!! im soo confused!!!
i can only hope its a sneaky BFP!! will find out next saturday!!!!

thanks hun, ill be sure to let u all know how it goes!!!

oh hun sorry to hear the last few days have been a struggle for u as ive learnt and i am sure u know, its ok to have sad days, hell i have plenty of them these days!!

do what u gotta do to feel better hun and if that means not posting or coming on here thats ok.....

[angelicdragon]

TeniBear you have been in my thoughts today. Your precious little boy Ianto is with you in spirit hun and knows how much you love and miss him.

Blessed I am so saddened to ehar of your sparation Can the counselling bring you guys back together do you think or will it just make the split be amicable.

Crumpet I have a friend who declares the metallic taste is her first sign of being pg. Hopefully you get a nice surprise

Big hi to everyone.
AFM I am finally onto a new cycle. I was beginning to think I had gone into sudden menopause so it is a good sign to have such a heavy and painful AF. I have ordered some OPKs which shold arrive enxt week and then I can tell if things are back to normal or not.
We never made it down to Annabelle Seems to always be something happening.

big hugs to all coz the group needs them.

Judy

[dory]

Angelic - glad to hear you're on track with your cycle again. Annabelle is always with you, you carry her in your heart. When you need to you will get to her special place, but don't worry about it. Sorry I missed you out, I am having a lot of Dory moments at the moment.