Chez - oh blossom, big hugs. I don't understand why its so tough either.
Charli - I have been back to the same hospita, twice now for maternity and also just had my stitch there ( but wasnt in maternity for the stich!l). I made sure I went back after Amelia but before Sophie, because I didnt want to be scared of a place. I just get treated so well by all the staff, one of the perks of multiple losses I guess. Initially I was scared to go back so I can understand Crumpet how you felt.
Crumpet - It's pretty overwhelming. I think I am trained not to show my emotions in public, that people don't realise the struggles. Sweetie - it's not embarrassing to cry or "lose it". It's just part of a grief journey. Who cares what anyone else thinks? They haven't walked in your shoes, so blah to them.
Just reminded me of some kindness that a stranger offered me. Whilst I was stil in hossy after Sophie I had to have a scan to see how the uterus was doing. I got wheeled over to Women's Xray and my wheelchair was parked next to a sofa. There was a lady sitting, well sprawled on the sofa and she didn't look well,sort of anaemic, but after a while, she looked over at me ( I was sitting with my head bowed tears slipping quietly down my face), and she offered to share the sofa with me and even offered me some more tissues. I was so touched by her kindness.
Weird how strangers can somehow and unexpectedly find a way into that lonely old world of ours at times huh? I hope that the counsellor helps.
All good here, Just have felt like I don't have much to offer at the moment, and haven't even been lurking. I'll bounce back soon enough no doubt.
Thinking of you... for those in the TWW good luck, I hope this is your time. Crafty- hmm increased smell sensitivity? Food and drink tasting different? Hmm girl I have everyting crossed for you.
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