Spring - Welcome Back!!!! Oh, so hoping for for you. What was Night at the Museum like? I love Ben Stiller, we were gonna go see that the other day but chose the other one instead.
Clare - Good to see your still sick, lol... keep up the good work
Deb - Hope your holiday is going well.
Nat - Hope your BBQ was good, definitely had the weather for it.
To everyone else, hope your all good.
As for me, the Witch has arrived Why does my body have to be so much like clockwork - for the past 3 months I have waited and hoped that it wouldn't come and every month spot on the day it is due I get a nasty little surprise (or not usually a surprise I guess) and I just wish that it would give me one more day of hope. I said in an earlier post that I didn't mind this month cause of the whole chicken pox vaccination and hysterogram, but I have changed my mind... I do mind - ALOT - its been 4 bloody months and I don't know what we are doing wrong but it just won't work. Now I have to go and have this stupid vaccination which means I have to wait for 2 more cycles before we can start TTC again and it seems to long away. I did think it would be ok because I knew there was a "reason" why we couldn't try and I thought it would take the pressure off a little. Well I have decided I like having that pressure, it gives me something to hope for and plan for and basically keeps me going through life. Now that I have no hope or planning for the next couple of months how am I going to keep myself distracted? Why am I being put through all this s***, surely I am not that bad a person that I don't deserve a second chance? I am so tempted to just bugger the hysterogram and the chicken pox vax! They have already found the blood disorder which they say is the cause of Nicholas dying, and I didn't know I wasn't immune to chicken pox previously and I got through without any related problems. DH says no we have to do everything right, but I did EVERYTHING right last time and he still died so maybe I should try a different angle and do the opposite. I know it is probably PMS talking but I feel really ripped off and hurt and sad and angry today.
And to make matters worse, I wear a necklace with a pendant that has photo-engraving with Nicholas' face which I have worn religiously (except for sleeping cause it strangles me) since I got it and I went off to work this morning and forgot to put it on :frown: I was so upset, I felt like I had left the house and forgotten my baby. What kind of mother does that!!! How could I forget about him? He should be in thoughts every second of the day but yet I just got in the car and drove off without even a thought. The necklace is what makes me feel he is with me, now I am sitting here at work feeling alone and upset so I thought I would hop on here and vent my frustrations.
Sorry to let it all out of you poor gals but I really needed to let it out.
for you. What was Night at the Museum like? I love Ben Stiller, we were gonna go see that the other day but chose the other one instead.
Why does my body have to be so much like clockwork - for the past 3 months I have waited and hoped that it wouldn't come and every month spot on the day it is due I get a nasty little surprise (or not usually a surprise I guess) and I just wish that it would give me one more day of hope. I said in an earlier post that I didn't mind this month cause of the whole chicken pox vaccination and hysterogram, but I have changed my mind... I do mind - ALOT - its been 4 bloody months and I don't know what we are doing wrong but it just won't work. Now I have to go and have this stupid vaccination which means I have to wait for 2 more cycles before we can start TTC again and it seems to long away. I did think it would be ok because I knew there was a "reason" why we couldn't try and I thought it would take the pressure off a little. Well I have decided I like having that pressure, it gives me something to hope for and plan for and basically keeps me going through life. Now that I have no hope or planning for the next couple of months how am I going to keep myself distracted? Why am I being put through all this s***, surely I am not that bad a person that I don't deserve a second chance? I am so tempted to just bugger the hysterogram and the chicken pox vax! They have already found the blood disorder which they say is the cause of Nicholas dying, and I didn't know I wasn't immune to chicken pox previously and I got through without any related problems. DH says no we have to do everything right, but I did EVERYTHING right last time and he still died so maybe I should try a different angle and do the opposite. I know it is probably PMS talking but I feel really ripped off and hurt and sad and angry today.
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