let me just say that my computer is doing weird things so i hope ths works.

Jo - first off you need a It must be so hard to be away from home right now. How much longer til the move? I think a nice drive with blasting music sounds like a great idea. Men can be so insensitive sometimes. My DH is good about Anthony but crappy when it comes to so many other topics. IKWYM the could have been moments hurt me the worst. i can't stop thinking about the should haves. i'll be thinking of you.

Katie - I think going away is a great idea for your EDD. I envy you for being able to put yourself first and saying no. it is so important in times like these. I will be at a bridal shower the day before Anthony's EDD. I am in the wedding so felt like I couldn't say no or ask for a different date. I am so glad your SIDS group went well. I am considering joining a support group myself. other than you lovely ladies of course.

TM - still thinking about you and your family. hope everyone is healing from the loss of your FIL.

As for me the 14th was not good. DH came to the wake with me and my family even though he was sick which was nice. but since he was sick I had to do all of the driving . A total of 3 1/2 hours round trip, on a work night. the first person I see when I get there is my mom's cousin who just lost her father (so I understand she wasn't in her right mind) she puts her hand in my stomach and asks how far along I am and how am I feeling. I am speechless so my mom says "no its gone, she lost it." My cousin apologized and I give her a free pass on this she is still in shock. BUT MY MOM DRIVES ME NUTS. I hate how she uses "it", i had a boy, he is my son. and he was not a set of keys that I lost. arghhh! then my mom's aunt who is about 78 told me it was for the best because "the baby was probably deformed." i wanted to say that he wasn't deformed, he was perfect. ten fingers and ten toes. I saw him, held him, and hugged him. i was only able to say i guess we will never know. anyway i am looking forward to having this week off from work (I am a teacher) i remem thinking this week off was supposed to be perfect timing because I would have been 33 weeks and I could finish getting the nursery ready. well i am offto church and then computer shopping. hope everyone is well.