Thank you all SB, Anthonysmum, TM, Naomi and of course Mel for your words of wisdom. It makes such a difference to be able to get your inner fears out.
SB - isn't it incredible how people find you when you need them. I'm so pleased your energy healer has arrived at exactly the right time. I will be thinking of you as you wait for results and get closer to your scan. Nothing is ever easy in this business is it? We spend our whole time waiting for a BFP and then when it comes it opens the door to much larger issues. But I truly believe (despite my emotional outburst) that a positive attitude is everything. You have every reason to be positive and proceed with faith toward that beautiful growing belly.
Naomi - Fingers crossed for tomorrow for you. The TTC and loss requires a great deal of courage - you too are doing a brilliant job - keep going!!!!!!!! Yep the old chinese medicine people have an incredible reputation...just like your story...my friends have had similar experiences. I think that's why I freaked out so much - because what he said to me was WORLDS apart from what he's told other girlfriends in the past.
Anthony's mum - I'm so sorry your journey keeps delivering fresh pain. Just like you mentioned in an earlier post sometimes it feels like every day (or test result) is just another kick in the teeth. Somehow our sense of justice says "This can't keep happening" and surely the universe will deliver some news that offers hope. Hang in there sweetie - the fact that this forum even exists proves the strength and courage us girls can muster when we need it. And if we lose our way temporarily - there's always a BB mate to lend you some positive energy until yours comes flying back.
Mel - thank you once again for your lovely text. I've sent a email to your other address.

Me, well the dust has settled on the Chinese medicine man's comments, and I have decided I will keep my appointment with him on Thursday. I've heard too many incredible stories to dismiss his opinion after one visit. he was incredibly insightful on other aspects of my life so I'm thinking I might set him to work on those and reserve my judgement on the baby making business until I clarify his comments - this time without the hysterical crying. No point in dropping the bundle now - full steam ahead - IF our little angel isn't meant to be - there will be plenty of time to deal with that - when and if we have to.
George