Lynn, the first thing that I want to say is that you are NOT a failure. It is so unfair on yourself to think that way, there is nothing that you could have done to save Cooper and what happened to him was not your fault. I know that your head knows this but I also know how hard it is to convice your heart of this when you are feeling so low. I am so sorry to hear that your sister is being so inconsiderate towards you. I know that it is easy to say, but you cannot change how people are so I think you have to change how you let it affect you, well that is what I have tried to do in the last few months. People just don't understand what it is like for us to have lost a baby, and how it so totally engulfing it is to live with this emptyness everyday. It is going to be hard on you for the next few months with your sister being pregnant, but do not let that or her stop you from TTC and fullfilling your dream of bringing home your baby. Because it will happen Lynn, it will. I have only known you for a couple of months and we have only met twice, but honestly you are one of the sweetest, amazing and bravest people I know, and I hate to see this get the better of you. I know that you must be feeling so lonely right now, but we are all here fighting this long hard battle together, so don't ever think you can't come here and vent. I hope you are feeling a little better and please know that I will be thinking of you and your little man Cooper tommorrow.
Kel.