everyone,

Mel - I am glad for you that you have your little guy home. I just so wish it was under different circimstances.His little urn is just beautiful. I know what you mean, glad to have them home, but sad. Both feelings can almost cancel the other out and leave you feeling nothing, if that makes sense. I saw your wedding pic's on Nicholas' site, you guys look good together. I love weddings, I just don't want to be in one I just want to go and do it quietly. I don't mind our group honeymoon, it's the kind of place that is good in a group anyway, plus we had booked our trip before our marriage!! I am sorry to hear about poor little Kenny, but I do admit to having a little laugh at the thought of you guy and your birds all watching the tv together. Have fun at the movies, I want to see Norbit, it looks stupid, but I love Eddie Murphy and will laugh at anything he does, even though it's dumb. Notes on a scandal sounds a little suss...think I'll avoid that one!

Lynn - Good on you for going into work. I think it's hard seeing people for the first time. I still haven't seen the girls from my old office face to face yet, cos I think it will be really hard too. It must be a relief to have done it though, and it is great that you have so much support from them. Isn't it amazing that once you lose a baby, so many other people come out and tell their stories as well? I guess people just don't talk about it. When DP went back to work after we lost Asha, 4 people he has worked with for years told him how it had happened to them or a close family member. He was shocked, we were still going through that whole thing where we thought we were the only ones.Though it is encourageing to hear that they all went on to have lot's of kids after, like your friend at work. I am sure you will be heading back in there in the not too distant future with your new baby. And I too have a feeling that March is going to be a lucky month for us all. I hope you get some baby germs tomorrow when you go with Spring!!

Spring - Woo hoo, scan tomorrow, and then telling the family. You must be nervous and excited. It's great you have Lynn to come along with you. How exciting! I am so jealous, but only in the good way of course! Ha ha, lol, DP wishes he was a pro-surfer. No, we just live near the beach so he surfs lot's and friends of his run a boat charter company in the Mentawai Islands in northern Indonesia, so he get's to go up there and spend a couple of weeks with his friends "bonding" on a boat. Patrick Swayze...that is hilarious, remember how cool that movie was way back when it came out? My brother and his friends went to a fancy dress party once dressed as the ex-presidents, they looked exactly like the ones in the movie...it was so funny, they busted into the party with toy guns and jumped on the tables and carried on etc. Stay positive for tomorrow. You told me you had no bad feelings with this little one, it is all good, and I was thinking, if your doctor lets Lil Spring meet you a little early, you are about a third of the way through now! Oh and if you wanna share some pics, Lynn has my email. I am so excited for you.

Dream - How is the family going? I hope you are well.

Hello to Flowerchild too!!

Lotsa to everyone!