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Ok girls.. I am here... just shaking the sand out of my ears.

OK so much has happened in here since I lost the nerve to post but I have been popping in to read from time to time.

Flowerchild - glad you are back with us.

Spring - please don't abandon us for the other forum... you input here is valued and needed, besides most of the girls want your babydust.

Lynn - there are recipies coming, I promise. Oh and thanks for sending out the little messages in your posts for me, it really touched.

Mel - I will call you soon.

Everyone else - hope you are doing well.

OK I have been in Ostrich mode and have burried my head in the sands of denial. I have been having a bit of an emotional struggle atm and so instead of facing and dealing with my demons I have been totally ignoring all the termoil and acting like everything is fine, which it is so far from being. This lead to a bit of a breakdown, I could come in here and when i did I couldn't post, I just felt sad and sick and wanted to cry. So ever the mature well balanced being that I am I just avoided it... if I can't see it its not really there right?... so I am back. I will be posting. Maybe not as much as some of you ... but I think I need to do this in baby steps. Its really hitting hard atm as I have a few pg people around me who are all due around when the twins were due and they are all having boys... sometimes its just hard to keep smiling and hoping my face wont crack.

Next time (hopefully there wont be one) I go missing have a look for me in the recipies, baby names or sick kids forums.. they are my safety haunts.