What a mixed parcel we have had today... good news in getting appointments and testing happening, but as always the pain is there... SO huge hugs to everyone and a dump truck full of pink and blue baby dust for you all.

Sacrlet - not sure if I have welcomed you yet or given you may heartfelt commiserations for you loss.

Lynn - Metformin is a wonderdrug, IMHO... I know quite a few girls who have used it and have had H&H pg's without too much waiting. It seems to be the best option for PCOS. I am glad that your f/s is on the ball and has been able to already give you some answers. Small follicles are better than none at all... it just means that this month is for practice.. maybe next month but boy when they mature things will be looking great. Baby dust for you too sweety. OH and with PCOS, the low GI/low carb is the way to go as well. I'm sorry things have been so crappy lately. I'm sorry you even have to know me.. oops there I go being stupid again.

Mel - Partner's X's can really suck. I'm lucky in that mine only ever wanted to be my friend, my issues with her are due to the fact I think she neglects her child, oh and she is totally narcisistic (sp?) and only ever thinks of herself. She never tried to cause trouble like your x-factor does... just used to leave her special needs child on our doorstep (not even knowing if we were home) at any hour of the day and drive off before someone even answered the door. I'm going to email you a link for stepmums.. really helpful stuff... anyway details in the email.

(More a vent than any sort of coherant communication!)
OK rundown on my freak out...
I have been suppressing everything for a long time, well since I got pg with Bridie. Because I feel in the month after loosing an angel at 7w4d I hadn't really grieved, then because I was pg I felt guilty grieving as if it would harm the baby, then I found out that I was having twins, then I lost one.... anyway you get the idea.. I wouldn't let myself grieve my 2 little angels because I was worried it would affect te baby... fast forward to now, XP and I have seperated, I haven't told family and friends about my angels since B was born, or even before she was born... so I have been pretty much carrying things on my own. Then there have been all the medical conditions that I have to deal with since they started investigating why I my babies fly to heaven. OMG this is so disjointed.. well when I lost the twins I wasn't issued a birth or death certificate, just a medical record of an 'abortion', luckily I know this is the jargon talk for miscarriage or I would be a bigger mess... I never got to see my boys.. and then it seems that in other states I would have been able to bury/cremate their remains and yet I don't even know what happened to their little bodies... so I sort of lost it a bit. Sometimes I spend all my time dealing with everyone (family) elses problems and my dd's health problems (she isn't majorly ill or anything, just a few annoying helth concerns) and being a working single mum that I juast don't deal with the me stuff. OK... none of this probably makes any sense.. its all over the place and crazy.. I think maybe it was just a vent.