Hi girls,

Mel - I am sorry to hear the ex is still stark-raving mad. It's so sad that some mothers will use their kids in this way just to get at their ex's. I think that she is just doing all of this for attention from him. Poor kids. plus this is the last thing that you and DH need to worry yourselves about when there is lots of BD'ing to be done. I hope that it is all sorted out soon.

Lynn - I am so happy for you that you have gone to see the FS sooner rather than later, this will hopefully speed up your BFP. It must be good to know that you are now doing everything possible to get your bubs. It's great that you have the FS to help you make a plan.

Mish - I hope that your hubby wasn't too tired when he got home

Scarlet - Thats great you got your referral. I hope you get an appointment soon.

Spring - Glad to hear that Lil Spring is doing well and your BP is normal. It must be great to have such an understanding OB and to get all of those scans watching your cute little blob getting bigger (he/she looks just like you by the way )

Well guys, I am ok. I was just a little sad on sunday cos to hear about your little angels from you was just so hard. I don't talk much about it cos I don't want to get upset or upset family or friends by opening up, so it was kind of strange to really be able to talk about it all iykwim. It was really good though, it felt good to purge it without worrying about upsetting anyone, and especially to people who really understand. So thanks again.
I am attending the SANDS support group tommorrow with my friend that I told you guys about (for those who don't know, a friend of mine lost her beautiful little man in december) so I will let you know how it goes. I hope they don't make you talk if you don't want to?? Not sure if I will feel like telling my story at the first meeting...we'll see.

On another note, I am pretty sure that I O'd yesterday, or last night. We haven't done any BD'ing since Sunday night as I thought I would just try to increase my chances of having a girl. We decided we would try it that way just once to see if it worked. Have thought alot about the boy/girl thing alot over the last few days, and I can honestly say that I want a little girl not to replace Asha, but to give me a little hint to see what she would have looked like as she grew. Of course I would be happy with whatever sex we had, as long as it was healthy, but I think it would be nice to have her little sister. I hope that all doesn't sound too weird, I am finding it hard to put what I mean into the right words.

I hope everyone is well and to you all.