Oh Lynn, the way I see it, this is nothing to do with quitting or giving up - it has everything to do with the way you feel and the effect coping and getting through things has been having on you.

I cannot begin to understand what you have been, and are still going through but I do know a lot of fight has gone out of me since my 2nd m/c 10 days ago - I sometimes struggle wanting to get off the sofa, wash my hair or even cook dinner and a lot of the time, I don't feel it getting any more bearable.

I do so hope I don't offend anyone (as I may not put this too eloqently) but I don't feel I have been through anywhere near what you have been through - I cannot understand how you have been this strong for so long.

I think seeking some sort of counselling is a great idea - I have wondered myself whether I may need to do the same thing - I have read posts from people that are taking yoga, homeopathy, counselling, loads of different things and say it is of great help, just relaxing their mind from over-processing things.

Perhaps once you have found a way to feel like you are coping better, you can carry on TTC at the same time as healing??? I mean, finding a way to successfully grieve may in itself enable you to carry on TTC - does that make sense??

I think maybe the last few days has taken it;s toll on you combined with the inaccessability of your FS - and the huge F**K up they put you through - it is very very draining and your spirits must be very low - would it help if I fly over and beat them up???

I can't think of anything else except I don't want you to be feeling so bad, which of course, is no help at all
Love Alex
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