I dint mean i'm scared, just lonely... it've been going to bed with someone there every night for ages.... Even if i did hate him, he was there (and very cuddley) i feel kind of deflated - my marriages lasted 2 months and however many days it is from the 6th... (dont know the date today). I'm joining RSVP and lavalife at the moment, see if i can meet some new people to go out with, need some friends to go out with.... clubs and pubs and stuff... I wont be going to perth until mid year i've decided- wait til the end of the lease, gradually sell most of my stuff, then travel light. May just need to take stuff like my dining table, couches, bed and kids room stuff. Better than the 1.5 large sea containers it took us to get here...