OMG Shell, we are so the same DH had me in tears implying the same thing. He also told me that I was feeding her not enough (eg 4 hourly instead of 3 and I picked this up from a book) im like noo this is what the midwifes recommended, however, now of course she isnt gaining weight some im feeding her 3 hourly and sometimes 2 hourly now. I asked DH for support not arguing every night cause its not good. He is fine me topping her up with formula and now understands if my excema gets worse I may not be able to BF at all but wants me to keep going as long as I can, Im like its me doing all this not you. I know what you mean by on and off all the time. Im trying to keep it going but I totally support you and your decision as I know exactly the emotions you are going through Shell. Big hugs and you have made the right decision for you.