Thank you...

I am trying very hard not to allow myself to blame either myself or my love for losing our baby. I dread the day I lose it and scream at him and voice all the things that go through my mind.. would not be fair at all and it would kill him, though really he has most likely thought it all too at some point. I guess it is hard not to blame yourself even though I suppose in the back of your mind you know it's not your fault. Maybe..

I had made the decision to speak with a support group or a councelor but to be honest I think the support I am getting just from reading your replies and other Angel Baby Mummies stories is about as good as it gets. I cannot thank you all enough for your kind words & support, just knowing people are reading about my baby and aknowledging what I went through helps.

I suppose at some point the sun is supposed to start shining again? I really hope it is soon, I am so tired emotionally, my body is exhausted from going from one extreme to the other.

My partner has at least been home all week and just having him to snuggle up to is almost enough, at least he is home right.

xxx