Yeah I get what you mean.
I still blame myself everyday or every time I think about my baby girl.
I miss her everyday and not a day goes by where I don't think of her and the 'what ifs'.
Deep down inside everyone knows that its not really their fault, merely fate or their body just isn't ready. But it still hurts and it does get frustrating.
Hell, I'm going through my second miscarriage at the moment and I just can't stop crying.
My 2nd miscarriage in 5 months. It really is heartbraking even though my partner doesn't even want a baby at the moment.

Its good you have your partner to snuggle up to.
I just get mine to put his arms around me tight and he just lets me cry if I need to. He encourages me to cause he knows it will help. And I'm a stubborn girl who always refuses to cry.
I'm here if you need to talk to me or if you want to talk privately I'll be more then happy to give you my personal email.

*Bree-Ana*