Susannah sweetie, I am so sorry to hear you are feeling this way, but I think it's only natural so early on.

I wish I had some words of wisdom to help you through this awful time but unfortunately I don't There's nothing I can say to make this any easier, but we're all thinking of you.

I think the only thing you can do is to acknowledge your grief and let it play out, as the other girls have said.

Perhaps some grief counselling would help you? That's something I wish I'd done because it took me soooo long to get to the point where I felt I could move on.

My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family.