Hi Kelli, i'm so sorry for your loss, there is no set time for how long to grieve, no set way to grieve and it's sad for you that the support you need is not there. Talk to your local doctor or hospital and find out some places that you can talk to, or the women and men on this site are great at being a sounding board, they're always very supportive.
I lost my baby when i m/c at 8weeks. This was a much wanted baby, we had tried for 10years to conceive, in sept 07, our very dear friend was killed, then a month later i found out i was pg, this was like a light at the end of a very dark tunnel, this baby would have been one very special child (not that others aren't because all children are very special) because of the death of our friend. In nov 07, (one day after my dad's 80th) b'day, i m/c our very special baby. 4 months later i still have moments that i cry for no reason. I run a day care service and two of my clients are pg, i can't avoid that in this type of environment, one is due a few weeks ahead of when I was, it's very hard watching her belly grow and listen to her talk about her pregnancy, although i'm happy for her, i'm sad for me at the same time, the other i just kind of ignore anything she mentions about her pregnancy, because that's the only way i can get past it, when i'm ready i will acknowledge her pregnancy and i still treat her the same as i always have and look after her little boy that same way, i just do what i have to, to get through.

At some point you will have a little baby, in the meantime go easy on yourself, give yourself time to grieve, it's okay to cry and it's okay to laugh. Remember you can come here at any time and talk about what you are up to.