I am so very sorry for your loss

I was also devastated by losing my baby at 12 weeks. I went through a very, very dark time. During that time I pushed a lot of my friends away because I found that I didn't want people to know just how bad I was feeling and that I couldn't cope with the fact that life had just moved on while I hadn't.

Some of my friendships suffered, and some blossomed because I found that I could talk to one friend in particular, and as a result I have become much closer to her and will never forget the support she offered.

Due to life circumstances beyond our control, my best friend and I grew apart. She was dealing with something herself and I just didn't have the strength for it.

Now that I have come out the other side (somewhat - since the birth of our new son, a lot of the grief has resurfaced), we are getting things right again. We've both acknowledged what happened but both miss our friendship so we're working on it.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that you won't feel this bad forever, and when you're feeling better, your true friends will still be there waiting. Just take care of you for now and try to mend your broken heart. It will get better with time.