I am glad you found us!
You know I think it took me the best part of a month to start feeling "normal" again, to not want to cry every time i see an obviously pg woman or a tiny baby, even a bloody add for nappies on tv!
I still have days when i just want to cry and feel sorry for myself and i dont think there is anything wrong with that.
I am still having trouble sleeping, having bad dreams and just thinking too damn much if ykwim?
I wrote a poem for my lost one, thats just my way of getting it out, there is a thread in here somewhere that is all poems and songs about lost ones, i found that the other night and just bawled and bawled but the next morning i woke up feeling sooooooo much better, like i had released something............also reading about other peoples experiences was a great help, it may not sound nice but it made me realise how lucky i was to have lost our baby so early and so "neatly" i guess, i didnt have to experience cramping and bleeding and clots etc, i had no idea anything was wrong until we had the ultrasound.
Sometimes doing something to remember your lost one can help you to "move on" (for lack of a better description!) like planting a tree or flower, buying a teddy bear or even naming him/her.
For myself i found that it was easier not to, but everyone is different and copes in different ways.
have you checked out the ttc after miscarriage and loss thread? I was so scared to ttc after my mc but those ladies have been such an inspiration to me.
xxx