Last year I found out that I was pregnant with twins, My husband and I were over the moon, we were ready for a family. But by the time we went for our 12 week ultrasound one of our babies had died. We were devestated and everyone was so insensitive they would say things like "well at least you've got one healthy baby", but it was our baby to. The last time we saw it alive on ultrasound it had the same heart rate and measured the same length etc as it's twin, it was just as strong and just as alive. Now its all but forgotten as a member of our family, by everyone but me it seems.

Sure we had a ruff pregnancy after the loss of the twin we had to have an amnio, we were told our baby would have a turned foot and I need more suppliments than I was taking. But we where told all of this could be fixed and that everything was fine. We were given a clean bill of health right up until the 12th of February.

On Thursday I went to the doctor because I hadn't felt any movement since Tuesday. The doctor (not my usual one) took a long time to find a heart beat but she said she found it and that everything was ok, she was so very wrong. She sent us to the hospital to be sure and after everyone couldn't find a heart beat I was sent for an ultrasound that confirmed we lost our other baby at 30 wks

Our daughter Isabel was stillborn on Valentine's Day after being induced the day before. We've since had a funeral, but even now it feels like everyone is moving on, forgeting, like no one cares anymore. I don't understand we wanted her so much we could have offered so much.

Why do other people get to keep there babies, but not us? Why did we have to go through the difficulties of pregnancy and labour and not get to keep her at the end of it all?

It's just all so very unfair, and I'm so lost now.

Thanks for reading. Sorry it's so long.