Kam, oh honey, I am so so sorry . I can't even imagine what you went through to lose two precious bubs. Life is unfair, lets not kid ourselves. Unfortunately, I wear rose coloured glasses most of the time, but even I was so rudely awoken when I experienced my own loss. I birthed my own son at only 20 weeks along, and I thought God was so cruel to take away my little baby. There were so many terrible and sad and guilty emotions I went through days, weeks and even months following Joshua's death. But with time I came to accept that yes, life is very unfair, and some women do get to keep their babies, it just wasn't me this time. But our time will come someday, and our new babies will help us heal and fill our hearts with love again. And bring new joy to our lives.
I aso felt that people were forgetting too soon, didn't feel comfortable talking about my loss. So I talked about it, and I forced them to acknowledge my son. He existed, and was so loved, I wanted them to understand that. I just feel so disappointed that my own family wasn't more supportive through my loss.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, and with your two precious angel babies.
Beata xxxx