So sorry to hear of your loss, it must have been heartbreaking to have lost both at seperate times

I know what its like when you are told they have found a heartbeat and you are fine. You breath that sigh of relief and relax............only to be told shortly after your baby has passed. I think that blow makes it hit so hard and makes it very hard for you to trust again. I had that happen to me, i relaxed for a week, only to go to my 19wk scan and be told my baby had passed and for a while now, so when i was told she was ok, she had been gone then. I find it so hard to trust because of that.

Please take your time to grieve, its very important. And talk about them as much as you want to. And do as many things as you feel you need to, to preserve their memory. There is a wonderful memorial website you can create, if you havent already. PM me for the link if you would like it.

Sending you lots of strength