Hi guys,

Sorry I have been so absent lately..

Having a really bad few weeks.. DS behaviour is terrible, I have no idea why. Huge melt down at school pickup 2 weeks ago, had calmed him down a bit and was talking super quick to a mum about an urgent thing and he ran off across a road and infront of a car. When he is in a mood he loses all sense of everything..

And every afternoon it's like he is on red cordial, running, jumping, banging into everything. Won't go on the trampoline, so hard to do anything.

I just want to cry.. I'm so sick of it all.. I don't want a ASD kid anymore.. I feel like it's punishment because i said before i had kids I was one of those mums who really mentally would never be able to cope with a special needs kid.. and now look.

I want to give my kids away and run away for a few weeks, but it's impossible. We have very little (i.e. none) family support, only 3hrs of respite from the council a week, and it's just not enough.

I don't know what to do anymore.