Oh Yael. Big Hugs. Its so incredibly overwhelming at times. Just know you are doing a fantastic job & your kids need you & you are doing the best you can to meet those needs. It the end of term & even the "normal" kids hit melt down stage at this time of their first year school. I know its not much but your not alone. Maybe you could try picking him up from school an hour early or something for a few days & see how that goes? Beat that melt down moment of the end of the day before he gets a chance to hit it?

I dunno, I know Evan use to go crazy at school pick ups & I just felt terrible having to go do that run each day knowing what I was in for once we got home, its an awful feeling not wanting to go pick up your son. It did pass though.