When I was pregnant I thought I had a fairly good idea of what to expect with a new baby, and didn't seem too worried about how hard it could be.

The reality for me was that after Aidyn was born, I felt like I went into some sort of shock for 6 months. I had no idea how dramatically having a baby would change me and my life... I had no idea how tiring it was, and how isolated and desperate I would feel at times. Although when pregnant I had thought I had *known* these things, it came nowhere close to experiencing the reality.

When I was pg, I was unaware of just how much of an emotional and instinctual pull my baby would have on me. I saw nothing wrong with setting up the cot in another room, assuming that I would need my space...
Well I was wrong about that too. After a few weeks of being a mother I was so incredibly attached to my little boy, that I wanted to have him settle in bed with me, and I couldn't bear to hear him cry, and my mothering instincts were just so strong - something that I hadn't realised I would feel so acutely...