ive been pretty lucky with the births of my babies

i have a massive fear of the epidurals cause i dont want a needle near my spine and tearing so when i had my DD at 19 all i could think was dont tear dont tear (luckily i didnt) then i cried for the epidural and was told no cause it was to late which in the end i was stoked about

with my ds i was more worried about what he was going to be like after birth cause i went into labour at 23wks my waters broke everyday and i haemoraged everyday til i had him at 30wks after 7 false labours in that time i just wanted him healthy at 30wks woke up to go to the toilet and felt his head told the nurse i was in labour and she laughed and told me to pull my head in i wasnt that she would get the CTG machine i had him after 25mins she walked in and crapped herself cause i had had him by then i had pushed the emergency button and all the other nurses come in in shock

with my dd i was so excited to have her i dont know why i was pumped and ready i sat there and read a magazine til it was time to push i had a lil tear but didnt need a stitch i was mega chuffed cause she was 8lb 4oz and had a head of 37cm and i had done it i was induced with her

with this lil man im excited but a bit worried as ive put on over 30kgs and am sstressing he is going to be 10lb lol but after last DD anything under 37cm head im sure i will be right