I was so scared about being pg because of the fact that i would need to get the baby out and was so scared that my body would fail me, Death crossed my thoughts on many occasions.

I loved every minute of being pg and i loved my labour (not the way it ended but that was taken from me)

......now my fear is a VBAC incase of rupture (if we are blessed to concieve another child)

I need to learn how to truse my body again and believe in myself, (and i will be getting a private MW or Doula!)