My feelings have been very similar to yours Selina... trouble saying that *I* gave birth when I felt I didn't do anything.

I also felt disconnected, and did for a long time (am slowly 'connecting' and seeing myself as 'mum'). As far as I was concerned that could have been any baby they handed to me, how to hell did I know? I think though that a level of disconnection is sooooooooooooo common. People just don't talk about it.

Everyone expects you to be so completely in love with this little baby as soon as you see it...
but for me I can say it didn't happen until WEEKS after the birth. I was ashmed so didn't say it out loud but honestly I think its so much more common than you think.

Sorry I can't find the right words to write but please know you aren't alone xxxx If you think you need some extra support please chat to your CHN.