Thankyou all for your support and positive thoughts. I had a home visit with our local community care nurse and speaking with her was really good. Starting next week Im going to go to an Early Bird group for first time parents and their babies who are 8 weeks old and under. She said that my experience is very common and there are other mums there who have gone through the same thing. I think it will be good to talk to them.

On a positive note i do have to say that the last few days have been slowly getting better and William and I are getting to know each other. He is awake more often now and has periods were he is happy to interact with others a little bit. Even practicing a few smiling gestures.

Thanks again all