Thankyou all so much. I never realised how talking to a bunch of strangers would be so good for me - so thankyou all..
As I said, I am taking it all one day at a time so will keep you posted.
Gargy, for the record - I would also dump this counsellor. I think she is very very wrong in what she is doing and agree with SuziQ. It sounds like this one is causing more problems then you need.
So thanks again lovely people...
Next goal - blood test number 2..

best...Lulu