Am I asking too much of him?

[nic]

Hey Lil chookie, hope you are okay...
Thinking of you..

Nic

[lil_chookie]

Thanks lovely ladies......just had a really really bad day on Saturday. It is hard to find someone irl to talk to (who can understand) so I guess I look to the cyber world for a little support sometimes. I have worked through alot of my feelings since the weekend & had a big talk with DH, so I am a little better now. Being back on this TTC rollercoaster makes me a little crazy at times!!!

I just want to have a baby, I want to have that little person in my life to love, care for and watch grow. I am feeling really angry at the moment that I don't have this and instead of feeling angry at myself for feeling like this, I am just letting myself feel it. Keeping it together is something I spend a lot of time doing maybe I need to stop doing that and let people around me know just how hard life has become for me. I also think I am suffering from a bit of a holiday 'hang over'. I really felt more like me than I have felt in years while I was away, I just want that back.

Thanks again for taking the time to read the words of an irrantional, emotion charged girl!!