I've been lurking since my first post but every time I go to post something I end up logging off because I hate labelling myself "LT TTC + MC", I don't know what it is, every time I see the heading I'm on the verge of bursting into tears.

Grats to those ladies who got their BFP recently and to those who received unwanted AF.

Thanks for everyones replies, I know I could go by myself but I feel in a way it's pressuring him. I know I can put my foot down and pretty much get my way and force him to do what I want but I've been very cautious not to do that in regards to another baby. I've asked him over and over if he's sure he wants another baby and the answer is always yes, I don't know, I'm just confused at the moment.

I'm very close to giving up, I've been stalking a friends wedding pics looking at my SIL who's pregnant with her 5th, I hate that she's pregnant, part because "why isn't it happening to us" but also for other reasons, which aren't really important but I'm finding it increasingly frustrating. DH's parent's are coming from Brisbane to stay with us at the end of the month and I know oldest SIL's pregnancy with be the hot topic.

I hate AF, I'm dreading the thought of it coming in 8-9 days. I'm at the point where I want to give up and have my IUD put back in just so I don't have to deal with it.

I hate that I have to keep our TTC secret from my mum because she doesn't approve. Every time I know she's coming I have to hide everything, delete the internet history and so on, why can't I just say "mum we're trying for a 3rd and if you don't like it, that's just tough!", why do I let this woman control me!

Sorry I'm ramblingly here, well I started vitex but just one tablet a day until this bottle runs out then I'll go to the 3 a day. Also looking into royal jelly and maca powder onto of my black mores conceive well gold. Also changed my DH onto menevit instead of his performance daily, was going to try sperm max but the lady said menevit might be better to improve quality considering he's over 30, it was also cheaper which is a plus. Also getting him to cut out his daily coffee milks, he's really reduced his smoking on the champix so hopefully that will stop completely very soon. Now all I have to do it get him off coke and for me to lose some weight, which is a whole new set of hurdles.

Sorry it's turned into a bit of a novel

The luckiest of lucky and stickiest of sticky to everyone.