oh Sunbeam, don't say that. Think of me last year - that was our very last go at IVF (or so we thought) after 9 1/2 years of disappointment. I know for myself I needed to draw a line because it is so trying to go through but you just never know how much longer you have or how many chances. Even this morning when I was freaking out I thought it's impossible to tell what the next year will hold. You've still a good age, even if you had a break now you've got at least four more years you could try. Who knows, you might meet the woman of your dreams on the cruise and all sorts of other possibilities might come up for TTC. I hope today comes back as a big surprise but I'm truly sorry for your HPT BFN and for all the sadness and loss that comes with it. We are here for you xxxx