hello everyone, I'm still here, moping in the background.
Trea, thank you for looking in on me and for your lovely post. It really makes so much difference to know you are all here with comforting words and caring thoughts. I think the anger hit yesterday - spent most of it fighting with DH (?!) who is just as sad as I am. It really doesn't help. We are going to look into fostering - had a chat about it last night so I'm going to get in touch with Bernardos on Monday and see if we can't get things moving there. We simply want to be parents. We feel like we have so much love to give that it's just not going to go away and we could hopefully give a good home to children who need it. I'm just scared to death that I'll have to be a better parent for someone else's children than I would be for my own, IYKWIM. Lots to think about. I have had all the immune tests done - I have slightly raised antinuclear antibodies and anticardiolipin antibodies which is why I was taking Clexane. FS didn't want to do the steroids but maybe we'll insist when we get to our little frosite...if it survives the big thaw which I'm pretty doubtful about given how far behind it was the two that were put back but I have to stay positive for that little spark of life.
India's Mum, Crafty, and thanks to you too for your kind words, I really appreciate everything everyone has said. Crafty, I think the hospital event really was a last straw for me. I've been through so many interventions I just can't take anymore. We will give this little frostie a chance then we are calling it a day. I couldn't even face the bloodtest - just too many needles, ultrasounds, pain, anguish, it all adds up and after 10 years I just can't take it anymore. If we could keep going naturally that'd be a whole other story.
MatthewsMum, I didn't know there was a special day for pregnancy and infant loss day. I wish I had known. Thankyou for thinking of us, I hope you found comfort in the day too.
Luna, any news? I didn't realise from your post that it is possible to go on into a pregnancy from where you are so I'm sorry for saying I hoped for a mc as a less of two painful options. I am hoping that your levels will keep rising and you have a little miracle there instead. Fingers crossed for you x
Sunbeam, thinking of you lots. Hope you're looking forward to your cruise and it does you the world of good. Did you decide on doing another stim cycle? Sounded like that was where things were heading for you and I so hope it turns out well x
Ferrals, one more sleep to the test. I hope they take the very best of care with your little girl to keep her safe inside you. It will be an agonising three day wait for the result - we're all here for you xx
Saffy, Clairesmum, T-hopes, Mildez, Porsche, Damprye (if you're reading), Toomanyshoes, and anyone else I'm sorry to have missed - hi and hope you are all having a restful weekend.
Well my lovelies it's time for some super good news around here to raise everyone's spirits. Stickyvibes and Babydust to everyone! Time for some BFPs!!
Possum, I'm sorry! How did I miss you? Thanks for thinking of me x
Last edited by Alice; October 17th, 2010 at 09:15 AM.
thank you for looking in on me and for your lovely post. It really makes so much difference to know you are all here with comforting words and caring thoughts. I think the anger hit yesterday - spent most of it fighting with DH (?!) who is just as sad as I am. It really doesn't help. We are going to look into fostering - had a chat about it last night so I'm going to get in touch with Bernardos on Monday and see if we can't get things moving there. We simply want to be parents. We feel like we have so much love to give that it's just not going to go away and we could hopefully give a good home to children who need it. I'm just scared to death that I'll have to be a better parent for someone else's children than I would be for my own, IYKWIM. Lots to think about. I have had all the immune tests done - I have slightly raised antinuclear antibodies and anticardiolipin antibodies which is why I was taking Clexane. FS didn't want to do the steroids but maybe we'll insist when we get to our little frosite...if it survives the big thaw which I'm pretty doubtful about given how far behind it was the two that were put back but I have to stay positive for that little spark of life.
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