Wow, Trea, what a long, long journey you have been on, babe you must be so strong XX
Thanks for sharing X
Crafty, I had a dream last night we were all celebrating you r BFP ! Was so weird!
Iv'e been waking up every night since ET b/w 230 and 330 with the strongest urge too wee, never get up in the night ever to use the toilet, but the broken sleep is starting to wither my nerves.
Trea - hi and welcome to our new thread and thanks for sharing your story. You sure have been through a lot - I just can't face the waiting involved in adoption and could never get over the ban that stops you doing IVF while waiting. That's the main reason we didn't get the ball rolling on it and now I think we'd be too old. I don't know why it has to be so hard to offer a loving home to a child in need when so many of them are suffering - here and OS - it's just not fair. I still can't get over the need for police checks to do IVF in Victoria - it's outrageous. Anyway, I'm glad you have had a breakthrough knowing about the NK cells and hope the prednisolone works for you. I'll be taking it too on my next IVF, and antibiotics (have you heard of that? It's worth looking into as well, MurryCod I think took them this cycle) anyway, best of luck to you.
Crafty, that is so weird that MC mentioned her dream because I also had a dream that you were UTD! Well, more like a persistent thought than a dream. Sometimes I get really strong feelings about things and often I'm right so fingers crossed x
Ferrals - Your temp is so good to be that high that you would think it was a BFP coming your way so I'm really sorry it is another crappy BFN Hope the next cycle is the one and you don't have to do the IVF at the end of June/beginning of Jully but if you do have to we're all here and a few of us will be doing it at the same time so we'll go crazy together and hopefully your little blasties will be free from the genetic probs you have with your DH and your long wait will be over.
MurryCod - cramps suck and I'm sure it's doing your head in our damn bodies give us so much misinformation especially on IVF it's always hard to know what's real and what isn't. Well it's all real but YKWIM...is it the drugs or is it because AF is coming or is it because you are pg I hope it's because you are pg I really really do. Hang in there - it's the worst time this waiting it's a bit like rock climbing (ha not that I do it but I did it once and it seemed to me to be as much of a mental challenge as a physical one) so hard to keep the mind still. I always try to make a pact with myself that this time there will be no forecasting but of course I always do we're only human and what else can you think about? It's hard to think of other things and I'm sure you are doing your best to distract yourself to stop it but be kind to yourself no matter what happens you've done the very best
Sevie, Sunbeam, Trea, Porsche - how are you all today? I hope you've had good weekends.
AFM well my brother and his partner are doing their second go at IVF and I sort of understand why they told me - have the experience in common etc - but I wish they wouldn't it was hard enough when they got my niece from one go after all the years we have tried and they never seem to think about what it might be like for us to hear about it probably because we try to be excited and happy for them like everyone else while inside it hurts like hell. If we'd started IVF in May as planned we'd be doing it at the same time thank goodness we aren't - if they get a BFP and we didn't, don't know how I'd cope with that. Hate that all this sadness for our own loss can make me feel like that about my own brother but does feel like he was born under a lucky star - he always seems to get what he wants.
Did you read about poor Kit? Her 6 week scan didn't go well (bub's heart beat was too low) after all her bleeding she must be crushed she's having a break I tried to send a message but her box is full.
Sorry for the bummer post - wish I could cheer everyone up - has anyone been having fun bding - any silly stories to tell? I have AF so nothing exciting happening here x
Hi everyone, hopefully your weekend was nice. Both my DH and I worked on Sat so tonight's our 'sat nite' so to speak! I'm just about to go make dinner. My DH made our entre which was gyoza (dumplings) which were delish. Now I'm going to make glass noodles with prawns and chilli...yummmm! My DH's favourite.
Alice- I can really empathise with you. I've just had a collegue do her 1st IVF (after 2 IUI's), she got oodles of eggs on 66iu of FSH (!) and despite I really don't want others going through similar heartache to myself (logically), I was so (strangely) relieved when she recently got a BFN. Quietly, I felt SO guilty! I have a couple of friends who luckily conceived 1st go on IVF. It's great but so hard all the same. What a rollercoaster!!! It really is lovely to be able to express myself (honestly!) with you guys!
I'm going to try and do personals but i forget where every one is up to and I can't go back while I reply lol.
MurrayCod - I really hope that the cramping means BFP. I've got my FX for you.
Sevei - I know how you feel. I think it's a natural feeling. One of my co workers had a baby end of last month and my boss said that she wants to come in to work to print some stuff off or something. I don't think I'm quite ready to see the baby as yet but I have no idea how I'm going to get out of it.
Ferrals - I'm so sorry you got a BFN. When do you expect AF?
I know I missed quite a few of you and I apologise. I'll have to go back through and reply a little later while I'm at work.
AFM I'm CD3 today and 2nd day of clomid. Not much happeneing just waiting gor AF to leave the building.
Where do i start i went to work yesterday prepared to see the pregnant skanks i work with ready to ignore them when an old work college came up to say hi and in the convo said so any news yet i said no she said she has her fingers crossed for us and said it will happen soon i just said i doubt it will ever happen (i don't know why i was so negative) while i was talking to her a male ex staff member came up to join the conversation and said oh what your still not pregnant my sister is for the 8th time i said good on her i don't care (WTF was i doing that was not nice) so they say their goodbyes i am left teary eyed but keep working then within 15 minutes my boys old preschool teacher came and siad hello i havnt seen her for a few years and in the conversation about my kids she says i am pregnant again i am not real happy i just had my 40th bday and was on the pill and only have one fallopian tube and the little sucker managed to get in there.
Well that was it i was pushed beyond what i could take i burst into tears and i was in the cashiers desk i couldn't walk away i still had to serve people they just came up to the window and looked at me like WTF they didnt know what to say i just cant believe so many pregnancy related comments i get why cant people just ask how have you been what have you been doing and if i want to discuss my inability to fall pregnant i will bring up the topic,
Needless to say my night was just frigging horrible.
Alice-thanks for the positive remark the only good thing that comes from my BFN is i will be doing IVF with some of you girls.
Did i tell you that it will just be normal ivf we are not doing PGD as it is to expensive so we wont be having the embryos tested we will just have to pray they pick a good one that is free from our bad gene but unfortunetly in our last PGD cycle our strongest embryo and the only one good enough at grade 2 to be tested was affected and we got pregnant with Abbi who was affected so to be honest it looks like the affected embryos seem to be stronger and do better so maybe we should pick a slow lower grade embryo.
And i know how you feel about your SIL if she gets a BFP it is so hard you want to be happy for people but deep down inside you hope it is a BFN i believe only because it is easier for us not to have to cope with more pain and disapointment if there were no pregnant people around me i would cope so much better.
The only people i want to see pregnant is the girls in here that i am struggling to ttc with.
My only funny BD story (well it was not the right BD time we were just fooling around before work yesterday )DH and i were have a great time getting into it when all of a sudden my DH daughter (who was visiting for the weekend comes to out bedroom door calling out puss puss puss come here puss puss i want to play and my DH says quietly to me daddy has his puss puss Well i burst into laughter so hard i was crying it was so funny i couldnt stop so needless to say it was very hard to continue because every time DH went to touch me i was in hysterics and then he started to lose his um! you know wind in his sail so that made me laugh even more so we gave up lol.
I did make it up to him when i got home last night.
Mildez-thanks hun but i doubt it.
Sevie-can i ask how do you know you have a poor ovarian reserve was it you FSH level or follicle count or response to ivf.
I discussed the option of donor ivf with DH either egg or sperm because we are both fertile it wouldnt matter which one but it would rule out our genetic fault so we would not have to worry about the 1 in 4 chance our baby had SLO but DH said no he wants our baby to be ours if we cant have our own baby he doesnt want one and i suppose i understand as we already have kids to our ex partners we just want one together that is made from us both.
I hope your ivf process speeds up a bit is it because of the therapy stuff and the wait to give the donor time to be sure they know what they are getting into.
Crafty-how are you going? my temp dropped to 36.16 this morning so if my cycle is like the last few months AF turns up 2-3 days after temp drop so should be here wed-thur.
Sunbeam-any news from you has AF turned up or are you still quietly hopeful?
Murrycod-I know you are stressed and being all negative and thinking the worst stop it!
Porshe-do you think clomid can help me get pregnant my cycles are normal i O every month but i have read that some women can still take it with normal cycles to help i am just wondering if there is other things to try before i do the whole invasive ivf road.
Well i think i have rambled enough sorry it took you all so long to read it i am stuck on the lounge with my furbabies on my lap so i cant move.
Have a good day it is my day off so i have housework to do Yeh! fun fun fun.
Ferrals sorry about the BFN.Hope your not as many DPO as that and it is a BFP just too early to show. Sounds like you and Crafty must be cycle buddies. Crafty hope AF doesn't come.
Alice sorry to hear your brother was born under the lucky star. Wish you were there under the lucky star with him. It can be so hard can't it? My brother and ex bestie are due mid June not looking forward to that. Its their 2nd and 3rd in the time I have been ttc so seems so unfair that they can have successful outcomes twice in the time we can't even get 1.
Murraycod just have to add that I have a good feeling for you. Cramps aren't all bad at this stage actually if it was me I'd be excited as it would be around the time of implantation right? FX so tight that its a BFP in a week when you have your BT.
Sorry for the lack of personals. I was away camping for the weekend OMG the toilet was full of frogs. I though we were camping in luxury with a flushing loo but everytime you flushed it about 6 frogs came with it lol then I opened the cysten and there were like 50 in there.
Any how CD14 for me so the BD fest has commenced. Going to call the Dr today I have been avoiding it but now DH is going to if I don't so I better pull my finger out and do it and hopefully can get in for 2weeks time in which time either I will know I have a BFP (if only I could be that lucky) or AF is due so will be able to start the pill for our IVF cycle.
Mildez - don't know how I'd go peeing on all those frogs!! Ah that's too funny. Camping sounds great - really feel the need to get away atm. Enjoy your bding fest - hope you don't get too sore
Thanks for your comments (and Porsche) too - I was logging on to delete my post before anyone had the chance to read so thanks for understanding. If the shoe was on the other foot I'd feel so bad for them, and I would never want them to go through what we've been through. I should have known that you'd get it just hate feeling sorry for myself - it's really not helpful to me or anyone here. Sorry ladies!
MurryCod - how are you this morning? Are you back at work yet? Hope the cramps have settled down. Thinking of you x
Ferrals - are you going to keep testing just in case?
Crafty - any news with you? Are you and MurryCod going to test together?
Sunbeam, Sevie - hi and sorry if I missed anyone else.
Alice- i forgot to mention kit is still in there with a chance a heartbeat of 80 between 5 and 6 weeks is actually normal it usually picks up to 120 to 150 at the end of the 6th week so her scan said she was 5 weeks 3 days so that would be right but the bleeding is a worry so hopefully for her she is just a few days behind and the bleeding is just bub settling in.
Ferrals - we posted at the same time. Cracked me up reading your bding story - thank god we can still find things to laugh about - your DH sounds like a character. I'm sorry you had such a ****ty shift I don't blame you for bursting into tears, sometimes it's just more than we can bare. If it makes your male colleague think twice next time he opens his mouth then good. I have a friend who knows we have been TTC for a long time and she tells me about her friend who is struggling after two months and I said I don't care, I don't want to know about it and that shut her up. And I really don't want to know about it - not being mean just protecting myself which is what you had to do last night. Glad your furbabies are keeping you company and I guess you knew that your temp was going to drop just bummed out for you that it has. I've had the same convo with my DH about donor egg and he is the same - he wants our bub and if he can't have it think he doesn't want to go with donors but who knows he might change his mind after all fostering is someone else's kids and we've talked about that. Can you come clean my house? It looks like a bomb went off! Dad's visiting later this week so guess I'll get to it before then LOL. Hope you have an OK day today - I'm putting a mental shield around you that no more ungrateful skanks or relatives thereof or just insensitive people either ask you about or tell you about pg. OK - shield in place. If they come near you they will have a sudden urge to pee and rush to the nearest toilet. Then they will be disorientated and forget why they are there. I think that'll work. Looks like it'll be Try in July for a few of us and if only that PGD testing wasn't so expensive fingers crossed you'll get a good healthy one x
Ha cross posted again! And thanks for the post about heartbeat - that's reassuring. The thought of another mc after only having had one scares the life out of me, more than not falling pg again. She's been on my mind heaps.
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Hope the next cycle is the one and you don't have to do the IVF at the end of June/beginning of Jully but if you do have to we're all here and a few of us will be doing it at the same time so we'll go crazy together and hopefully your little blasties will be free from the genetic probs you have with your DH and your long wait will be over.
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Mildez - don't know how I'd go peeing on all those frogs!! Ah that's too funny. Camping sounds great - really feel the need to get away atm. Enjoy your bding fest - hope you don't get too sore
I don't blame you for bursting into tears, sometimes it's just more than we can bare. If it makes your male colleague think twice next time he opens his mouth then good. I have a friend who knows we have been TTC for a long time and she tells me about her friend who is struggling after two months and I said I don't care, I don't want to know about it and that shut her up. And I really don't want to know about it - not being mean just protecting myself which is what you had to do last night. Glad your furbabies are keeping you company and I guess you knew that your temp was going to drop just bummed out for you that it has. I've had the same convo with my DH about donor egg and he is the same - he wants our bub and if he can't have it think he doesn't want to go with donors but who knows he might change his mind after all fostering is someone else's kids and we've talked about that. Can you come clean my house? It looks like a bomb went off! Dad's visiting later this week so guess I'll get to it before then LOL. Hope you have an OK day today - I'm putting a mental shield around you that no more ungrateful skanks or relatives thereof or just insensitive people either ask you about or tell you about pg. OK - shield in place. If they come near you they will have a sudden urge to pee and rush to the nearest toilet. Then they will be disorientated and forget why they are there. I think that'll work. Looks like it'll be Try in July for a few of us and if only that PGD testing wasn't so expensive fingers crossed you'll get a good healthy one x
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