Oh Jodie......i can totally relate to the emotions and thoughts that you are having....i have also been thinking the same thing especially with all the set backs that i have had with my IVF rollercoaster ride.....with regards to the older baby moving out.....i certainly know how that feels...my eldest nearly 18 doesn't live with us....he lives back in the city.....at time it is good, and other times it is very lonely....but they all eventually move away.....i too am like you and love being pregnant and also feel that i have s much love to give to children....i hate the feeling you get when you walk down the street or at a shopping centre and you see a very preg woman or a newborn baby in a pram.....it is like my heart is being torn in 2, and i want to be just like them, but then i remember how i have to wait......babe if you need anyone to talk to you know where i am....hugs babe.....kiya
your such a good friend that i can turn to.Yeh i guess we both have the same feelings,i suppose i dont want to get down the track and regret that its now to late for another one.I just feel so guilty because i have 4 kids and even these kids i cant give 100% attenion to.Is it fair on another child?I guess im feeling tired,and to think of putting up with more teenages at 50 makes me wonder if thats what i want.Dont get me wrong if it comes back positive i will be over the moon as its a gift from god but if it comes back negative i will take it as though i need to sort out my thoughts first.Another thing is also i have made 5 babies that are in the freezer so its unfair if i dont give them a chance.Oh i wish i didnt have this second thought because its pulling me down.
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