gem - i am so glad that your BF is so supportive - i know its hard even when you are husband and wife to go through a miscarriage - even if it is an early one it still hurts.

I spent a long time blaming myself - thinking of all the things i could have done differently - stupid things most of them too - like i now refuse to take out the rubbish - my cramping started straight after i did that... i still have a ticker going - of my due date - i would be 25 weeks by now... i made a scrapbooking page and wrote out everything in a diary... we all get through it in our own ways- not always entirely rationally either - it does help to talk about it if you can...we are all here for you if you need to vent a little ... hope that the hurting eases soon and you can begin to move forward...