Gem I am so very sorry to hear of your recent loss & my thoughts are with you as you travel along in life after such a terrible loss.

Good to hear that you have enjoyed a weekend out with your BF & that you are feeling a little better about things. Try not to place expectations on yourself about how you should be feeling & when you should be feeling it, let yourself take time to heal properly & do whatever you need to do to help yourself feel better & recover.

We are always here whenever you need us.