I have so many negative strong memories, everything still feels too fresh one year on. But a good memory was seeing DH learning how to change her nappy in the first few days while in NICU, under lights and on CPAP. His hands looked soooo huge lifting up our little DD, and he was shaking and scared about hurting her. HE was so in love already and it was beautiful. The first kangaroo cuddle when DD was 2 days old was so overwhelming, then I had to wait again for a few days so heartwrenching as well.