Hi sorry I haven't been around for a few days. We went away camping for the weekend and omg it was freezing lol. Sage had a great time playing and getting dirty as kids do

Michelle PLEASE come in here and vent or "talk" about what you are going through. Each and every one of us is here to support you as you travel through each day. I'd like to come and visit you soon too so I can give you some of these IRL. Also good on you for taking that massive step of taking the kids to the park. I'm sure they loved going and will remember all the times their Daddy took them there and will now get to create some new memories of going with Mummy.
I also agree with everything Jayne has said

Janie What a little trooper baby D is. I'm pleased his op went well and he's now home again with you

Willow How was your weekend? Thanks for the email too

As for us well DH is pushing for no more babies and I'm struggling with that idea in a huge way. I feel like I'm being punished for all my m/c's and it sucks I told him to wait until I see my Ob in a couple of weeks as I just can't give up my dream. I'd always wanted 4 kids but DH only ever wanted 2 so I agreed on that but I just feel a bit ripped off if he continues pushing for us to stop now. If there is something else out there that is simple and will help us have another healthy bub then I want to try that just once. I NEED to have that chance. As for the bleeding well I've put that down as af. It hung around for 8 days so I wasn't too impressed about it but I can't change it. So I had a 26 day cycle after d&c. Totally different to my previous 35 day cycles but who knows what my silly body is up to now.

Hi to everyone. I'll try to catch up on all your posts soon.