Have you used a doula? Is it worthwhile?
Having a Doula was the best decision i made! - she helped me achieve the birth i wanted and was a constant source of support and knowledge - i (like you) was TERRIFIED of giving birth and when i found out i would be induced due to a medical condition i was even more scared- i then went on to have a 7 hr vaginal birth with a bit of gas and no tears! - I know 100% that if i hadn't had my Doula (and done a lot of reading) i would have gone into the birth process under a cloud of fear and not aware of what my body was actually capable of. So to answer your question, YES having a Doula is very worthwhile!!