I had a private midwife at my first DD birth, well worth it. i trusted her completely and she was very supportive. It was long and difficult but I did really well i thought. Every bub since then has had its good points and bad points, intially when labour starts I have been excited but soon afterwards felt overwhelmed, I have labours with a lot of back pain and its hard to get relief...my last 3 have ended in emergency CS...I would like to hire a doula but with the chances of CS high on the cards it seems a bit pointless.
This baby was not planned and labour ( well actually birth.. however... CS is more scary than natural birth for me) would be one of the reasons high on my list of not wanting to do it again. But I have to!!!!! EEEEKKKKKK