Basically, he told me to sort it out quickly and demanded that either I have an abortion or do it by myself! He said he was not going to have a kid with me...not yet and that I was trying to stich him and that I must have been careless...When I told him I didn't know if I could have another abortion, he said that was not what he wanted to hear and that I needed to make a decision cause he didn't want to be left wondering what I was going to do! He then went out for the next few hours and we barely spoke when he got home...He didn't say one word to me this morning when I dropped him off at the train station! I'm so confused....I just want this whole situation to go away! I can't make this decision. On the one hand, I know he is not ready and this is not what we wanted right now, we are just about to go on holiday and were considering moving up north for a year or so...On the other, I just don't know if I could live with myself, I have spent the last 2 years trying to get my head around the first abortion and I just think another would send me over the edge, and yet I question whether I'm ready for a child! Part of me feels as though he's making me suffer for his guilt over his other children, yet I know he hurts every day because of it! I don't want to have to do this on my own, I mean who does really!?! I would need to find somewhere to live and give up my job for at least a while, leaving me with no income! I always imagined me spending the rest of my life with this guy and having a kid eventually...I just want his support "no matter" what decision I make! Its not fair of him to demand from me, he is not the one that has to live with it!